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| Wednesday, June 25th, 2008 @ 11:57pm |
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I really love the fact that i could just come back to the not so complicated livejournal and just write shit. and it's cool, because not many people read this so it's so awesome. Anyway so I'm 19! and i did go to Canada, which was so much fun! i love my sister. i'm so happy right now it's amazing. i'm starting school on September 2nd. This is for real, unlike when i said i was going to start in Jan. which i just got nervous to start school up again. all i do now is work, smoke, and hang out with jeff. doesn't sound like a lot, but it's fun all the time.
so Work. yeah the Frosty Freeze, the store that we've had for 19 years now. i love it, and i hope we never get rid of it, or at least out of the family. it's pretty much taken over my summer life. but that's okay, cuz i love most of the workers. exceot like one person.
i love my boyfriend so much. i wish he will get better. he's in pain every single day, and i just wish he could be normal and be able to go out with me. i'll be with him till the end of time, and will be there to help him in anything he needs. he's my everything.
my sister is gone to new york. i miss her quite a bit. i wish she was still her so we can go to the clubs. which i love canada. if you go with the right people. so eeryone come to canada the weekend after Fourth of July! it's going to be a party!
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| Tuesday, January 8th, 2008 @ 10:14pm |
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The Holiday's were pretty fun! A shit load of family was here and it was amazing! Christmas party was fun, new years definitly had it's ups and downs. total bummer that night, but i'm over it.
well other than the holiday fun, i'm getting a brother i guess you can say. my cousin jennifer basically is giving up her child, and if we don't take him he goes to a foster care place. but it's totally cool because he loves it here, and can't wait to live with us. his name is Scott and he just turned 14. it'll be cool.
let's see what else, oh yeah the boyfriend, probably the greatest thing that happened to me in 2007, is being with him. i've never been happier with him and honestly no one can be better than him, no one. AMAZING! that's all hehe.
umm.......i didn't get to see any of my friends that came home, which i was sadly disappointed, cuz i couldn't call anyone cuz i don't have most of their numbers anymore. but what can i do but move on and make other friends i guess. i did happen to hang out with josh, probably the only high school friend that still talks to me. it was fun!
i really miss being 18. i don't party, i don't go out, i haven't even been to a club yet. it sucks but whatever. i'm home all the time. i don't have a job, i'm not in school yet. and i don't really know what i'm making my life into. i'm probably gonna be a nothing. that's totally what i don't want to be, but i've figured i'm the laziest person alive. i don't do shit, when i could do soo much. but who knows. i'm really hoping that i get off my lazy ass and get my school shit together. i've lied to a shit ton of people saying that i'm going to school and stuff, which i really was, but i'm having second thoughts...
man i'm just lame.
that's all for now.
hugs and love
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| Wednesday, October 10th, 2007 @ 9:52pm |
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mood:  happy music: Chris Brown - Kiss Kiss
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first of all. My boyfriend, Jeff, he means the world to me. i really am in love with him. and i know it. ::: you know that feeling like in the movies, how you'll know when you've found that one person. and you just will know. ::: well that is my feeling. and he feels exactly the same. and the crazy crazy part is, is that we've only been talking for almost to weeks. he makes me feel like the most important person in the world. i wish i could explain more, but there really isn't any words that can discribe the feeling that we both have for each other. i will marry Jeffrey David Baskin! :-D
the frosty freeze just closed. yesterday. and it's very sad, because everyone is there constantly. they don't even want ice cream anymore, they just come to actually hang out with liv and i. every night it's been a party!!!!! ever since our friends house got raided, which is also a crazy ass story, but everyone. and i mean EVERYONE comes there. unannounced and everything! i loved it! but now we are gonna have to find a new place to hang out. my friends are all amazing. i do miss my high school friends alot though!
but so many things has changed in my life. and i'm loving every second of it. the craziest shit has happened in the last month that's just crazy as fuck! i love the thrills of my life.
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| Tuesday, September 18th, 2007 @ 12:34am |
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it's by far one of the sweetest places to be.
and to all those wonderful guys who have stopped by there.
to all of them below:
Matt williams.
Jeff Baskin
T.J.
Kyle
Alex
Andy
Matt G.
Jimmy
Ramen *even though your gone.
i love you all!
more than anything.
suposedly i have a boyfriend.
but i'm going crazy.
i might be gettin text messaging!
yayh!!
♥Sam |
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| Saturday, September 15th, 2007 @ 2:03am |
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mood:  exhausted
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he's moving to Las Vegas tomorrow.
and i'm pretty sad about it.
he said to me, "When i come back,
no matter if you have a boyfriend,
if you're engaged, or even married.
I'm going to marry you."
ahh he's so awesome.
ramen you will be missed by a TON of people.
i love you very much so!
♥Sam |
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| Monday, September 10th, 2007 @ 1:44am |
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mood: happy
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so school school school. i honestly cannot wait till i start. i haven't enrolled yet.. but i'm working on the paper work stuffness. anyway, i went for a tour around my school. which is, A Paul Mitchell School, in sterling heights.
and i LOVE IT!!!!
i can't wait to dress up everyday. do what i want to do! and everyone there is soo nice. i'll probably start somewhere at the end of Januarty. oh my i'm just so excited.
anyway. i've been in probably the best/worst mood lately.
let's start with the good. there's this guy. he wants to marry me. not date me cuz he said if i can't have you for the rest of my life, then i can't just date you. and he said "i wish you could have met me before the ex-boyfriend so i could take your virginity, and then we'd have to get married." but too bad the guy that said all this is moving to vegas. and he's just a sweet friend, probalby nothing more. but sadly i like this other guy. and it's totally working out and i love it! he's so sweet. he's a gangsta.
the bad moods is just shitty people at work. that's basically my only rage time.
and i'm talking to some old friends, and damn it's so awesome.
yet i do miss my high school friends very much!
well that's the update on my life.
it's going good.
oh and i'm quitting.
(haha that's a lie. but i'll still try)
♥Sam |
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| Monday, August 27th, 2007 @ 1:59am |
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mood:  . too many feelings.
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what really encouraged me to write something tonight. was just reading friends of mine, that are saying their goodbye's cuz they are all leaving for college. i'm not gonna lie i'm extremely sad taht the people i've come to known for the past 3 years, are going away. what's even more sad is that i've lost touch with all of them. and what's sad most of all is that i didn't try to see any of them. i know it was just me keeping my distance. which i didn't want at all. but things change. in fact knowing that i've run out of time to see them is killing me inside.
yes i've met sooo many new people this summer and it's been great. and i know that they all adore me and love me, cuz they say so. but those friends kept me happy, kept me out of trouble. i guess hehe. and i know every single time i start to post an entry i always start talking about friends. but some of them even meant more to me than anyone in the world. but no one absolutely no one can replace those friends i've had.
i don't know what i'm doing with my life. i fucked it up soooo much over the summer taht i can never get that time backk. everyone is off to college, making something of themselves. and here i am just now starting to get my schooling in place.
i don't mean to be soo negative all the time. and i guess if someone, anyone reads these silly little entries, i just want them to feel bad for me. but i don't wnat that anymore. i want to be that happy again. i want to just stop having all these feelings come back. i know that i shouldn't be still be thinking of him. but i do. i'ave wanted to talk to him just to talk. but i know i'll never get that chance. i was always hoping that i will just ignore everything, and then i won't have to see him ever again, but it sucks even more. i dont know. i'm a mess. and i don't know what to do. i mean why? why do i still think about this. why am i not over it. why why why! i mean i haven't had this feeling of something that's incomplete in a LONG time, at least a month or two. but now i know he's leaving and i really won't get to talk to him. i can't talk to anyone about it, cuz no one can do anything. the only one to talk to is him. but i'm never gonna get the nerve to even call him ever again. i can't even look at pictures of us. i can't. i guess i'll just have to keep writing, and just pooring out my feelings this way, i mean every single time i type entrie like this i cry, and cry. waht a wuss i've become right.
but i can't keep rambling on about this. i'll post another one. later.
but i wish everyone ,who is leaving for college, do well!
and accomplish everything you were going to college for.
i'll miss everyone.
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| Thursday, August 9th, 2007 @ 12:35am |
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next time when you think about talking shit about your ex-"best friend"
don't do it when there's people around who she's tight with.
thanks you back stabbing bitch!
or at least that's what she told people.
yep that's pretty much it
and.
i got my phone taken away.
so anyone deciding to call me.
just leave a message please
or call the frosty freeze!
love all!
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| Tuesday, August 7th, 2007 @ 1:10am |
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yep so im gronded till i move out of the house,
why you may ask.
had a couple people over, sister got pissed cuz brother can't clean, and dad got $500 stolen from him, ohh ohh and, i can't hang out wiht anyone, especially those who are leaving in a few weeks for college.
i've got to get my shit together.
my life is a fucking mess!!!!
for the last 4-5 months ive had to deal with so much shit.
things that i just can't take my mind off of.
and family.
i want to just start now, get a good job, move out
and be on my own.
yes it'll be hard i know.
but i want to do it.
i've been negative for so long, and it royaly sucks!
my friend have noticed it and everything.
i hate it
and i miss my friend from high school.
i miss them all so much
but for some reason im scared shitless to see them
like they don't even know me anymore
and i think my ex hates me.
he always seems to ignore me when i'm around
and i fuckin cried at fuckng warped tour because of that.
damn it's so pathetic. and he'll think it's completely retarded
that i'm still sad about the whole thing.
it's sucks and i can't seem to face it
he's gonna leave for college
and i'm going to be holding everything in forthe rest of my life.
and damnit i guess i'm gonna have to live with it.
fuck this!
i need to get staright
and realize that i'm more then making ice cream
and huffin' and puffin'!
if anyone, anyone at all still reads these entries
comment. tlel me something. anything. spill you're heart out to me.
talk to me about anything.
<3 Sam |
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| Sunday, June 17th, 2007 @ 10:20pm |
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I Hope That You Can Make It!
There will be a moon bounce, music, snow cones, and hopefully a velcro wall!
Regrets ONLY
248.835.7052
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| Friday, June 8th, 2007 @ 12:32am |
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i really want this part of my life to just pass by.
i guess it's me who's making things a ton worse than what it really is
i mean granted i lost like friends i've known and hung with for two years straight.
i could try to make others. but will definitly miss them SOO much
and i've deleted him from my phone so no more fucking calls kay.
i know i just need to get over him
there really is no fucking reasoon why i should still like him
i think it's the more and more he stays away and i can't see him
i want him more. i think if we would have just been "friends"
like we said we were going to i think thing sould have been different.
but this is the way it goes.. soo..
i love work.
the fact that it's just a huge hang out!
it's amazing.
i'm kinda house sitting till the 12th
so give me calls!
<3 Sam |
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| Saturday, June 2nd, 2007 @ 8:54pm |
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i didn't know how quickly you could lose all your friends
i know that after high school you lose touch with people,
but still a couple of them at least stay around right???
but no. so quickly i lose everyone. and i mean eVERYONE!!
all the kids from hazel park have totally stopped talking to me.
i don't think i did anything wrong
but it's mostly because of the fact that me and cezar broke up.
i talked to him about it, and he was trying to keep his distance from me,
so i guess everyone else has to too.
sooo basically all these people that i would hang with instead of gettin to know more troy kids, have completely stopped calling, stopped hanging out, stopped everything.
deep down inside of me, i'm pretty sure alot of the guys liked me and only hung out with me because i was dating cezar, and i was just there that's why they hung out with me.
totally sucks i know, but i can't do anything about it, but TRY to make new friends.. from where i have no idea cuz high school is over, and i have no one to hang with, except for cuzins, but i don't want to be with them everyday and always count on them. i want fricken friends!
and not to mention allie, i totally lost her too over some damn money situation.. which i wish i could pay her back but i can't cuz i haven't tlaked to the hp kids and they need to give me the money to give to her. we've completely stopped talking all together. i do need my tank top and bathing suit back from her. and thats about it. but i know she's happy and she doesn't need me around. which is cool ya know.
and losing these people have just made me get into things that i've been doing non stop. and i'm kinda craving it right now.
but this whole entry is about friends and how i don't have any anymore.
it was really hard for me to get friends, and now they've all just done away.
it sucks cuz there is no more school and i can't try to be friends with more people.
i mean it's the last day of high school, and a friday night, and what am i doing?
NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING!!
life sucks.
i hate it right now
i just want my old friends back
i want true friends.
i dont think i'll ever be able to make friends again
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| Thursday, May 24th, 2007 @ 12:14am |
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there are so many good and sooo many bad things going on at the same time
these last couple weeks have been insane!
two proms! which were fun!
-one part of our prom
having an amazin boy come back into my life,
whom by the way i'm crushing on hardcore!
but most of you know that already though.
schools almost over and i'm just getting super excited
i talked to Mcarthy today and he exempted my absences
SO I CAN GRADUATE, just i ahve to pass my classes.
it's like half of my day is just so stressful
=the school part
then the other half is just so relaxing and all i want to do is chill with family, ryan, friends, and people who care about me
=after school!
so the stressful part of my life has a lot, i mean all of it to do with this one person who has been really pissy towards me ever since April. i know she'll read this but i dont care at this point and i just really need to get shit out there. she was my best friends until Spring Break, when she became extremely pissed at me for hanging out with people and meeting new ones, when she didn't try at all. i mean i've known those people longer than i've known her. they have never had problems with me, and like me for being me, and being chilled, and every opposite of what she is. every single person i've asked about her, they told me they don't like her. and the reason why is cuz she trys to always one up them. all the time. she tries to act like she's better than everyone else, all the time! and these words didn't come from me it came from those who gets treated like that. even things that i say, she has to make it all about her. like she's the only one that matters, and that everyone should feel bad for her just because, for example, parent yelling at you for 10 mins straight and the other parent do nothing about it. okay HELLO my dad has yelled at me fore hours and hours straight with my mom saying absolutely nothing. kay 10 mins is nothing, deal with it. it's called life. and another major thing that bugs me so much about her is, she keeps bringing up is this money talk. and i'm not talking about prom and all that shit, i'm talking about you bringing up my bank money. yes i do have money in the bank, it's called saving it for the future because i'll be paying for EVERYTHING myself. and i'm not going to spend take it out and use it cuz i need it at the time. that money is my savings. so don't keep bringing it up!!! and this whole prom jazz, okay i've told you what i need to tell you and if you don't tell your friend the amount she owes then i guess you won't be gettin all of your money back. i mean if you don't like how i planned things you shouldn't have backed out and put it all on me. you'll get the part of the money i owe yuo and after that, it's between you and megan. but after all this is over, i'm not sure where you and i stand. because how i see it, is that you don't want to talk to me, you ignore me, and just give me weird ass looks all the time. i'm not sure what made you mad at me in the first place. i mean i'm not trying to have you go back to your old ways when we were on SB and drink all the time. we're on two totally different pages in our lives. i dont know what you mean by you want to have a friend like yourself because frankly i would think that would suck. but i can't be that friend sorry, there is no way in hell i'm like you!
but that's just a few things i wanted to say. i'm tired of typing about it cuz it's just pissing me off more and more. so i'll type about something else.
like this boy ryan. who i've been friends with since like, preeschool. and for a year or two we haven't spoken much. which was really sad cuz he's the greatest.and now he's just back into my life and it feels awesome. and yes i do like him. but its honestly weird how God works. see i wasn't looking for anyone, cuz personally i didn't know if i was totally over cezar, i mean i still don't know if i am. who knows. but at the fact that i wasn't looking for anyone and ryan just happens to come back in my life is amazing! i hope we never stop talking again. i just hope he at least have some feelings for me!
but i'm dont typing so i can finsih this paper for goslin!
leav you're thoughts!
<3 Sam |
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| Monday, May 14th, 2007 @ 11:56pm |
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mood: a little weird
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yeah again and this time it hurts really badly!
i honestly have something on my mind
and it won't go away cuz i know i'm not oer it
and i kinda don't want it to go away.
but i know that it must
else i'm going to keep holding on to something that is never gonna be there ever again.
but i have prom this saturday.
and i'm excited
just don't know what we are gonna do after,
while we are in the limo
if anyone is interested in going..
call me it'll be $25 only!
oh i need a hug and kiss!
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| Sunday, May 13th, 2007 @ 12:28am |
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last night was Hazel Parks Prom. and i must say i had quite and amazing time!! the dancing was very fun! very very fun! and cezar had a party which was pretty awesome too! even though i passed out at 3:30am and that kinda sucked. but for the most part it was fun and entertaining. and that was probably the best time i've had in a VERY VERY long time.
even though this whole thing with my feelings are going crazy. because honestly i still have feelings for him. and we did hook up last night, well no fully hooking up but yeah. i don't think he remembers much just cuz he was probably still drunk. but i dont know anymore, i mena it's not like i'm expecting him to like me again. cuz i kno he doesn't like me at all!
anyway prom was amazing! and i loved it!
so here's a few pictures.
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| Tuesday, April 24th, 2007 @ 11:48pm |
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mood: yay!
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life is grand at the moment.
even though i don't have a boyfriend i'm really okay. he's an amazing person and i'm just really glad that we are still friends and i'm okay with everything.
some things have been a little rough here and there.
but i'm not going to let it effect my everyday life.
i don't understand how different people can act when
they are out of their element.
anyway
i asked someone to prom
he said yes!
but i kinda feel bad cuz i feel like i should have asked someone else. my mom thinks i should have. but i don't know how he feels about me and things like that.
MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 3 DAYS!!
omg 18. i can't believe it!
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| Saturday, April 7th, 2007 @ 11:03pm |
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mood: awake and ready to leave music: Justin Timberlake - Summer Love
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yeah soo on wed. Cezar broke up with me
i know sad.. i'm pretty much over it for now
but who knows when i see him next
SB07' is going on!
and i'm leaving for Florida for a week
with Allie, Chase, and Allie's Mommy.
i want to get tan
out of snowy michigan
and ready to party it up!
i'm taking a break from packing
cuz i don't feel like doing it honestly.
i bought my prom dress on wed.
it's gorgeous.
if you'd like to see it just wait till prom
and see pictures
cuz there is no way in hell i'm not gonna go to prom
when i just spend $418.70 on a dress that i thought
my boyfriend was going to ask me too
but since i don't have one i have no idea who i'm going with
i'm still kinda hoping he'll ask me
but who knows i don't.
well i'm out!
leave you're comments.
thoughts love whatever!
<3 Sam |
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| Wednesday, March 21st, 2007 @ 11:43pm |
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mary told me what happened and here it is!
MARY: didnt you have to get blood taken 2day after school
SAM: no
SAM: i didn't go to the doctor today
SAM: i slept right through it
MARY: o oo
SAM: so.. what happened
MARY: when
SAM: today
MARY: after or when i thot you died
SAM: both
MARY: well um we just had put our helmets up .. and your like i feel faint , n we're like o um are you ok.. and you didnt respond and started falling forward and mr wharry was holding you by ur jacket
MARY: so i tried to get behind you to set you down but hte stupid canisters of gas were there
MARY: and hez like do you ahve her and im like no .. and he let go and you smacked your head soo bad on this huge metal thing, im surprized you didnt liek bleed.. , mr wharry was scared out of his pants
SAM: oh my god
MARY: and had dave come over , and stand by.. while i was like shakin you to get up .. so i had to hold your head cuz you were like convulsioning? convulsing? and making weird noises and your eyes were really scary
SAM: omg really
MARY: and then you finally woke up and it was creepy cuz like i was hholding your head and all of a sudden your eyes opened and imlek omg are u ok
MARY: and your like wut? imlike u fainted and your like i did? and i todl you , you were on the floor and um you like sat up by somewhere else while i stood there and dint know what to do
MARY: then every1 was freaking out and then when class got out ppl from way downt he hall was like wut just happened in mr wharrys class and my art teacher already knew and it was spreading really fast
MARY: ur head doesnt hurt at all?
SAM: no not at all
MARY: wow lol i thot i killed you
SAM: oh dear! i'm sorry! i feel really bad. oh dear!
MARY: no its fine , the only time i saw some1 faint and do that was kerby in 9th grade
MARY: it was scary
SAM: oh.. well god. i had no idea what was going on.. until i got in the clinic and was just drinking and laying down and just waiting to get picked up.
MARY: well atleast your ok, so we didnt get to weld
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| Wednesday, March 21st, 2007 @ 11:00pm |
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mood:  not so good music: american idol! i'm a dork!
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so around the end of 2nd hour to lunch time i was waiting to give blood. i ate and drank alot. then i went to fourth hour. it was cool and fun! and i even drank a juice in that hour. then me and mary went into the shop to ya know start welding and learning how. well after mr. Wharry was demonstrating how to weld. i told him i was feeling dizzy and hot. then next thing i know i hear mary's voice saying, "sam, sam, sam, can you hear me, are you okay?" then i opened my eyes and i was just so clueless on what happened. then mr. wharry took me over to this bench to lean against, then mike (the hall monitor) came with a wheel chair, and wheel chaired me out to the clinic. then i went home about 30 mins later. but i guess when i did pass out, mr. wharry caught my hand and he thought mary was holding me from the back and she wasn't so they dropped me and i hit my head on the ground a cabinet i guess...
i honesly didn't remember anything. and was probably one of the scariest things ever. i was out for a couple mins. but yeah i'm kay now, a little light headed at times. but alright.
besides that!
The FROSTY FREEZE is open!
and everyone should come a get ice cream!
but yeah leave me some comments make me feel even more better!
<3 Sam |
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| Monday, March 12th, 2007 @ 10:46pm |
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ATTENTION:
if there is anyone that isn't going anywhere for spring break BETTER call me!
cuz sadly i can't do shit this BREAK
and i'm pissed..
but yeah leave me love cuz i'm really down right now!
P.S.
Allison Rogowski's 18th Birthday is tomorrow!!
so early saying...
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY ALLISON!
i LOVE you very much!
<3 Sam |
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